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Generational pathetic.

I have to do a french presentation tomorrow and I cannot handle the stress I am feeling right now. I skipped a level in french because that was the only way I could fit it in my schedule and so I’m worse than literally everyone in the class and I’m gonna humiliate myself. We’re only allowed to have ten things written on a notecard to help us along and we have to speak for 6 minutes on prehistoric tools and I just can’t do it. I’m bad enough at speaking in front of people there’s no way I can do it in another language! And we’re doing it with a partner and mine is my really good friend Ameer and he loves me and everything but he’s also a perfectionist and is super anal about his grades and I can’t handle ruining the project for him and the last time I had to speak in front of the class I was stuttering and shaking the whole time and I was reading something word for word off a paper I can’t do it if I’m not reading it off a paper I’m not good enough! Not only did I skip a level but I’ve only had bad teachers for the past three years, and both of them were let go from their positions so the french that I did learn was super shitty so I’m like 10x behind most of my class cause a bunch of them have been speaking french since kindergarden and there’s even a girl in my class from Cameroon where french is her first language and I. Just. Can’t. Handle. It.